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Last night I was able to go out with some of my very good friends! We went to dinner and were going to head over to go bowling. Well apparently Saturday night at 9ish inst the time to go bowling... EVERYONE was thinking they should bowl to! So we ended up going home. But I just want my girls know just how much fun I had with them! It was a nice break from what has been going on in life. I just have to say that Olive garden has a really yummy YUMMY smoothie there. That was so worth the price! mmmm I wouldn't mind one right now! :)

Well I was thinking last night that I would venture back to church today, even if it were for sacrament meeting. But that didn't happen. One I didn't wake in time (I haven't had much rest, and apparently my body knew it) Then there was the thought that I didn't want to have to talk to everyone and explain who I was ( I haven't been for awhile and our ward is growing fast) where I have been and how my mom is doing and what type of cancer she has, where it started , what were her first symptoms... and so on. So I didn't go. Sienna's friend Elle was kind enough to call and ask her to go, and she went. I just want everyone who has offered to take my kids to church, thanks! I know one day I will be back there, but for now, I'm not ready.

My mom is doing ok. Friday was not a good day for her. She wasn't wanting to fight anymore. She was so tired and worn out. All she wanted to do was "go home, be done". It was toughto see her this way. All I wanted for her was to be at peace regardless of how it was to take place. Yesterday she was half and half. She wanted to fight, but wanted to be done. She was so very weak yesterday. Shane, my brother said that today she was doing better. While this morning she was a bit weak getting up, she was able to get around by herself. She was able to sit on the couch and rest there. I am going over later today to see her. So I hope that things are better. I just want whats best for her. Again, I just love her with all my heart. Love you Mom!