That's how feel today. I think everything is hitting at once, and I'm not taking to it too well.
There are just those days where you feel down, or feel less motivated, or just plain ol don't like the day. Today's gripes for me are as follows...
1. No weight loss, even after about a month of swimming. I can see my legs are getting more muscles, and such, but my lovely scale hasn't given me a break!
2. People. I have always had this thing, I look at a person and wonder what their life is like, and think about how they are human, and the have the same needs as me, or think about how hard they have worked in their life time to be where they are. Its the same thing when I see people eating. We all have that need. Its an odd thing, I know. But while it helps me to be more thankful for what I have, it also makes me sad... haven't figured out yet why that is.
3. Trying to grow up. Is hard to want to be more "girlie" and not have the confidence to do it. I suppose if I was lucky to have a body that fit into the general made clothing, it wouldn't be a problem. Or if I would just let go of my insecurity of being more girl like. I thought for sure by this age that I am I would have been more ok with "nicer" clothing. But here I am still wearing T-shirts and shorts. Boy clothing for that matter. It just fits a bit better, hides all the flaws that I see. But really it only makes me look bigger, I think. So how does one over come this? Same with make-up. I'm so trying to work on this one! I have to, I'm getting OLD! heehee
4. Friends. I have to say that I have grown a lot in this area. Since moving to this street, I have been able to make some incredible friends. I never had luck with friends. They would either be a friend for a day to get what they needed, a ride up boarding, to someones house...It was amazing how they would use me. It took me a long time to get over them, and to move on with my life. I hated the drama that came with it. I have had some time to time in my married life that made me feel this way, and I have been better about handling it. But I have also been able to trust and become good friends with some fine ladies... You know who you are.... and if you don't, well I will just have to smack you one!
5. The heat!! UGH! I cant wait until fall!
I'm sure I could go on...but for your sanity, I wont. Besides I have to tend to my screaming kids, all 3 of them! Humm... that could be #6! heehee....when does school start back up?? *smirk*
BTW don't you just love the spell checker?? :)