That's how feel today. I think everything is hitting at once, and I'm not taking to it too well.
There are just those days where you feel down, or feel less motivated, or just plain ol don't like the day. Today's gripes for me are as follows...
1. No weight loss, even after about a month of swimming. I can see my legs are getting more muscles, and such, but my lovely scale hasn't given me a break!
2. People. I have always had this thing, I look at a person and wonder what their life is like, and think about how they are human, and the have the same needs as me, or think about how hard they have worked in their life time to be where they are. Its the same thing when I see people eating. We all have that need. Its an odd thing, I know. But while it helps me to be more thankful for what I have, it also makes me sad... haven't figured out yet why that is.
3. Trying to grow up. Is hard to want to be more "girlie" and not have the confidence to do it. I suppose if I was lucky to have a body that fit into the general made clothing, it wouldn't be a problem. Or if I would just let go of my insecurity of being more girl like. I thought for sure by this age that I am I would have been more ok with "nicer" clothing. But here I am still wearing T-shirts and shorts. Boy clothing for that matter. It just fits a bit better, hides all the flaws that I see. But really it only makes me look bigger, I think. So how does one over come this? Same with make-up. I'm so trying to work on this one! I have to, I'm getting OLD! heehee
4. Friends. I have to say that I have grown a lot in this area. Since moving to this street, I have been able to make some incredible friends. I never had luck with friends. They would either be a friend for a day to get what they needed, a ride up boarding, to someones house...It was amazing how they would use me. It took me a long time to get over them, and to move on with my life. I hated the drama that came with it. I have had some time to time in my married life that made me feel this way, and I have been better about handling it. But I have also been able to trust and become good friends with some fine ladies... You know who you are.... and if you don't, well I will just have to smack you one!
5. The heat!! UGH! I cant wait until fall!
I'm sure I could go on...but for your sanity, I wont. Besides I have to tend to my screaming kids, all 3 of them! Humm... that could be #6! heehee....when does school start back up?? *smirk*
BTW don't you just love the spell checker?? :)
6 comments:
I'm glad you found me! I'm still kind of blogger retarded, I just figured out today that I had comments and how to leave them! lol thats so crazy about the orbs! i'm glad i'm not the only one, I'm sure Zach thinks im nuts...well maybe not quite as nuts since I showed him the picture with 5 orbs in it!! your blog is awesome by the way, I love how you update it all the time!
and about what you just posted i'm exactly the same way about wearing boy clothes! they hide things better but i think they make me look bigger...and makeup, ugh! I wish they would make clothes that would fit me, a short girl with a ghetto booty! lol
Yes, junk in the trunk...i have a lot of that! and short...yes thats me too! *grin* Thanks for makin me laugh!!
Thats so funny! I bought 2 mens t-shirts the other day and i have been wearing the heck out of them because they are just nice and airy and they dont cling to the roll after roll after roll that I have! It sucks trying to be girly! I always think that maybe I would have more friends if I was a little more into the girly scene..hasnt happened yet, maybe one of these decades!:)
Thats what I keep thinking Kahlia! :) I still love ya! Thats why we are good friends, we understand each other!
I am so glad I'm not the only one that has blah days. I feel like I have them too often! I hope you are feeling better! I think you are so great! And you looked hot in church on Sunday! I forgot to tell you that. I was too worried about the stupid songs I had to play. Don't worry about the scale! They are all wrong anyway right?! Well at least when they say what you don't want them too. I think you are gorgeous (honestly) and wish I could be as chill and relaxed as you are! Thanks for the invite to Jumping Jacks too! If only Kenna wasn't sacked out. I hope school gets back in for your sanity!
I love how honest you are Misty. And I too love big baggy clothes (not just when I'm pregnant) - but give in to the pressure to be more "girly" when I'm in public. In middle school my best friend would only wear baggy clothes and we tried to get her to change it up a little and when she did - lo and behold she had a cute little body under there! Don't be afraid - but also don't do anything that YOU don't want to. I finally realized a few years back that I'm not naturally athletic and once I let go of always wanting to be something I wasn't I felt so much freedom! Oh I could go on and on :)...
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